Friday, January 14, 2011
 hi. i'm not trying to be emotional here but im letting out everything what i felt. 14 January 2011, i hate you please. it's because i've ended my r/s with him. i tried my best to make you stay but you ended up leaving me behind and i let you go. how could you did this to me. don't you remember all your promises? i guess promises were really really meant to be broken :/ promises are worse than lies. 'cause you make them hope. hope for something that you're not sure you can give. so don't ever promise if at last you gonna break your fvcking shit promises. i just can't stop crying and thinking about you. did you know that i tried my very best to hold my tears infront of my friends? but they ended up rolling down my cheeks. i ain't a strong girl. how could you easily leave me behind? don't you ever think about my feelings? you decided to leave me just because your sorry was like no use to me already? and just because i did not text you yesterday? it never ever cross my mind that this will happened. holly fvck, this is the first time a guy asked me for a break. it feels terrible for goodness sake. i cried reading your long text at 4am+ and because of that, i can't get back to sleep. i need to stop crying. i look horrible with my eyes swollen like wtf. so i guess my 2011 wish did not come true. somehow i wish wishes really come true, haish. so anyway i would like to thank my twinny pig, fana, tiqah, fadilah, ieeza, wani, rawr, syak, crownie, mira hazirah, haniz & danial for the concerns. thank you guys ♥ i'll try my best to forget about this. and you know what? i'm always a failure when it comes to love. with a heart so weak, maybe love was never meant for me. dear mhbr, i hope one day you will come back. please don't go. i still love you though :'( lots of love , shekyn ♥ |
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